Saturday, December 24, 2016

an ancient prayer- fitting for Christmas Eve

A prayer written by Julian of Norwich, in the 4th Century- relevant to us these many centuries later as we again celebrate the coming of our Lord into space-time history... and into each of our daily lives:

Lord, let not our souls be busy inns that have no room for thee or thine,
But quiet homes of prayer and praise, where thou mayest find fit company,
Where the needful cares of life are wisely ordered and put away,
And wide, sweet spaces kept for thee; where holy thoughts pass up and down
And fervent longings watch and wait thy coming.

Wednesday, December 21, 2016

Hello, Regent College


Today I went to have lunch with an acquaintance who works at the Regent- meeting her there was my first visit to Regent and the broader University of British Columbia (UBC) campus. The girl I met was actually the one who told me about Regent last year- it was great to see her and catch up over lunch at a cozy pub. I also dropped by and met the Admissions staff with whom I've been corresponding the last couple months... I was greeted like a long lost friend. While there, I also discovered that an acquaintance from Oxford works as their receptionist. Then in the lobby, I ran into the people who had invited me over for Christmas. Basically, what I am illustrating is that Regent is a small town within this big city. And that suits me perfectly.



and the squirrel went about busily nesting her new home


Since arriving, a chief aim has been to nest my room. There is much to be done- a city and transportation system to figure out, groceries to buy, ID cards to pick up, things for which to register... but in the midst of it all, I still felt that making my space cozy and homey was valuable and legitimate. My small labors have come together thus far to produce a place I find pleasingly cozy and peaceful. 


There is still a blank wall to be reckoned with and some other odds and ends to be acquired for my project to be fully completed, but some of it will have to be done in bits and pieces, because for now I have to get down to some serious reading for my classes which start just after New Years!

Monday, December 19, 2016

O Christmas tree...


My Charlie Brown Christmas tree was furnished by a visit to the recycling bin, and a few souvenirs from my walk around the block. Simple and small, but no less perfect:) 


the view from here



So, I discovered that I live on a hill...! 


Its snowier than I usually prefer my beaches;) but it was a beautiful none the less!





My prayers overflowed onto the sand. I was just praying with so much gratitude in my heart... I am SO thankful for the overflowing blessings I have experienced here in the day or so.
Thanks for praying, friends. 

the Great White North...no, seriously


I left Maui with a slight sunburn- hours later I was walking out of the Vancouver airport into full out winter wonderland. Thick snow blanketed everything in sight and was falling like confetti, celebrating my arrival.  From what I hear, this is unusual weather - which would be why buses aren't running this morning, etc- but its been pretty fun for heightening the drama of moving from Maui to Canada. Clearly they aren't kidding when they call Canada "The Great White North" ... 




Its been really beautiful thus far- not just the plush carpet of bright white snow, but settling into my house and meeting a few people... the generosity and hospitality I've met continue to blow me away. I've been asked over to a family's home to spend Christmas day, invited to a New Year's gathering, and now had someone volunteer their car for a couple weeks while they are out of town for the holiday. The believers in this community are crazy. I'm so blessed. The Lord has not just paved my way, He has rolled out a red carpet- or, more appropriately- a white one. 



Sunday, December 11, 2016

many moons ago


I was barely seventeen when I came to Maui eighteen years ago. Now, as a thirty five year old woman preparing to leave my island home indefinitely, I have been reflecting on those days so long ago.  There has been so much to be grateful for that its overwhelming. Its been a wildly rich season- in joy and heartbreak, trial and transformation, laughter and tears. In everything, I have been carried along by God's grace. In everything, He has worked for my good. 
I am just...blessed. So many times over.

My heart is looking at the horizon, even as I soak in the last days here... I hoped to soak in the sun, but alas, its been just plain soaking: its been pouring rain. But in less than a week, tropical rain will feel very far away: they are forecasting snow this week for Vancouver. 

Seasons change. Even if you have long lived in the land of endless summer.

Many moons ago- in the Fall of 1998


Sunday, October 23, 2016

a new horizon in view


During my last months in Oxford, as I prayed for guidance, I became increasingly interested in further academic development. Besides loving being a student this past year, I had also become inspired by one of Wycliffe Hall’s missions: the intellectual renewal of the Church. The Christian imagination, I was reminded, plays an important part in this renewal as well as in commending the Faith: imagination informs what people find believable. I began to see viable bridges between my creativity, writing / literature, apologetics, and academia. 

So where could I pursue these intersections related to my calling? Regent College in Vancouver, Canada, offered me a place in their Master of Arts in Theological Studies program- an offer which significantly expedites my academic career and allows me to tailor my degree in an disciplinary direction to accommodate the my interests. While I don't have all the resources I need yet financially, I have a sufficient amount to get started, and I have experienced a surplus of peace. Moreover, I have been confronted at every turn by the motif of Peter “stepping out of the boat” in Matthew 14:29. My impression is that the Lord is calling me- even when the wind and waves aren’t yet still- and I want to respond without fear, trusting Him who holds all things. Accordingly, I have taken the step of confirming my enrollment - my classes begin in January. That means that barring unforeseen events, I will be moving to Vancouver in less than two months! 



In the meantime,  I am continuing to invest in the YWAM missions training ministry here- and am excited to be involved with a week long outreach on the island next month, as YWAM and RZIM join up to collaborate with the local Christian community to together commend the gospel on Maui.

Maui has been my home for over half of my life; its a little twilight zone-ish to be making plans which will take me away for two years- or indefinitely! However,  I am full of anticipation for how the Lord wants to form both me and my ‘voice’ for a vocation of truth telling- be it through writing, speaking, teaching or any other medium. 

However, regardless of what lies beyond this unexpected horizon, there is one thing about the journey which can be known for certain: like all others, it will begin with a single step. A step that arcs over a boat rail, and sets a foot firmly on the surface of the deep. In what is He beckoning you? Are there waves soaking you? Is there sea spray in your eyes? A storm He has not yet stilled? Let us take our step- fixing our hope on Jesus Christ- whose voice so often calls us out of the boat before it speaks to calm the storm. 



Thank you for your prayers in this transitional season! 

Wednesday, October 12, 2016

family time island style


My sister, brother in law, and three nieces are on island this week... and its my nieces first trip to Hawaii! Its been a pleasure to get to tourist around with them a bit over the past few days- and I feel they have had a pretty good survey of Maui: from both north shore lookouts and south side beaches to the slopes of the Haleakala crater, and from kalua pork and tropical fruit to local style shave ice- they've sampled it all!


With my sister at Ho'okipa beach park


The nieces all suited up and loving the waves


They wanted to see how pineapples grow, so we stopped at a plantation visitor center


Disney world  has fireworks every night. But Hawaii doesn't need them:) A beautiful ending to each day down on the beach...


Its been nice to pause from life, work and study and enjoy some family time... as my family enjoys the island i call home. Maui no ka oi! (Translation: Maui is the best!)


Tuesday, September 20, 2016

Maui: a very long way from Oxford

Thank you for your prayers- my transition back into Maui life has been marked with God's grace and I am very grateful. As per usual, the lifestyle is simultaneously both decidedly rough and strangely privileged. And if one thing is clear, its that Oxford is a very long way away.


Even so, this place is home to me- so there is a thaw and a joy to it... especially in the beautiful little things: salt water in my hair, a good deal of going barefoot and feeling the sun- too much of it, even- on my face... things in short supply in Oxford:) But these are the background colors. There are more significant things afoot. 


The school here is bursting at the seams with our Fall influx of students, and its exciting - all afresh even though I have done it for years- knowing that God is going to use this season to meet young men and women the way he met me here so many years ago. I never get tired of seeing Him engage people and redirect their lives in paths that lead firmly into His Kingdom purposes. 


I am investing in the School of Biblical Foundations and Missions students several days a week- and using the rest of my time for personal study and review of my past year's notes, preparation for next steps, aiding several parties to communicating and coordinating an RZIM mission to Maui in November, and working on various projects. Its a blessing to be participating in the YWAM community here, while also getting to pursue some broader life and ministry objectives- its a very good fit for this decompressing season following such a deeply formative year away in Oxford. 

It seems that Oxford has left some indelible marks on the contour of my life and calling, and though the door is not open financially for me to return there at this time (though I would love to continue there), I am considering pursuing further education since vision for that path came alive in me this past year in a serious way. Please pray for me as I consider an offer from a different college to enter a Masters program in January. I am waiting to hear whether they will offer any financial aid, and am praying and discerning whether this is the open door I have been asking for. 

Thank you for your continued support as I serve at the mission training course here in Maui and explore how this past year is shaping both my calling and near horizons. 


Thursday, September 1, 2016

leaving on a jet plane


Just left Oxford on Monday morning- a sad departure, leaving a place thats been so special to me. A place full of people I have lived with, learned with, laughed with, and loved. 


 Sixteen hours of flying and another eight plus of transit have brought me back to Maui. Accommodations wise i am in a holding pattern, so not feeling really settled in regard to my living space, but otherwise its been a happy landing... made warm and familiar by enthusiastic friends and the balmy tropical air. 

Tuesday, August 23, 2016

the bench


The first week I was in Oxford, before most students had arrived, I met two of my classmates- Cameron and Sukai. It was a beautiful early autumn day, so we bought lunch at a sandwich shop and sat on a bench near St. Giles church, and talked about what might lie before us in this coming year we were about to share. We talked about our hopes and fears, and wondered aloud whether we'd still hang out when we had other friends...or whether hanging out on this bench would become a regular occurrence or not. 
We decided that in any case, at the end of our time here, we should come back and have lunch together on the bench and reflect on the year.


As it turns out, the three of us never returned to the bench together for the remainder of the year, although we all thought of one another and that special day on the bench whenever we passed by it. Now as we prepare to leave Oxford in the next week, we all agreed we needed to take time to return to the bench as planned, and debrief. So yesterday, the three of us sat on the bench (the guys wrote  me a card and bought my lunch and coffee- they are so sweet!) and discussed our years highs, lows, challenges, changes, growth, and treasured moments. It was a special moment itself, sharing these things on the bench where we first began to share life just shy of a year ago. I went that first time with acquaintances- I went this time with brothers. 





Wednesday, August 17, 2016

the blackberry days of summer


We've moved from our flat and are staying in a house with some of our former classmates. Its on a tidy little row of British townhouses near the river, just a short walk from downtown, and it is a perfect nest for my last couple weeks in Oxford. 


At the end of the block, the street opens up to an access to the river and the walking paths running alongside.




On the first morning, I made my morning coffee and brought it down to the stairs which at intervals lead down the bank to the waters edge. The sun has been out and I planned to bask, watch ducks, pray, and while away the morning. And thats exactly what I did, on my magical little stair hideaway. But then I noticed berries on an overhanging bough of the thicket covering the steep bank... and was delighted to find that they were blackberries. So i stained my fingers pink a(nd scratched my arms rather badly on the thorns) picking sunrise berries and eating them merrily as the ducks looked on. (They don't much care for them. I tried.) 



There is a whole thicket, dropping over into the river just bursting with berries. I can't reach those without getting serious wounds from thorns and/or falling into the river. Ooo we should hire a punt and come take all the overhanging berries... anyhow, all that to say there is simple loads. More than the birds can eat. More than the birds and me together. None of the cyclists or walkers on the path seem to care about them- besides some elderly residents who have chatted to me and are delighted to see the berries getting use, since so many go to waste. So my new hobby is picking wild blackberries.


This is what I casually gathered in a few minutes time when I was down by the river this morning. They are the sweetest and juiciest berries ever- it took me awhile to learn not to pick them just because they were dark, but to only pick the fat soft ones that fall off into your hand without resistance. They are the sweet ones. They almost taste like cotton candy. 

What to do with the colanders of berries I keep bringing back over the last two days of living in this house? Well, we've talked about everything from blackberry pies,muffins, cobblers, and cocktails, to sauces, smoothies and syrup... blackberry everything


I started with a small batch of jam. It called for a ton of sugar, and I think I about turned it into candy or syrup...but it tastes pretty fabulous. So while I will definitely tweak the recipe if I make more, we're hardly disappointed with this bright summery spread to start our mornings. 



The bushes show no sign of stopping anytime soon- there are thousands of berries at all stages of development...my time in England is ending with a sweet blackberry summer.



Monday, August 15, 2016

Belgium!


Me, my classmate Max, and his wife Fiona traveled to Belgium for the weekend for me and Max to speak at a Christian event. We each had several sessions each- Bible teaching, Q & A, youth events... as well as all the informal times of prayer, encouragement, etc. It was a full weekend, but we got time away one evening to celebrate my birthday in village within walking distance of our hotel- which itself was within walking distance of the event site in a nearby nature reserve:)


We took lots of trains. 


Festival site- surrounded by beautiful forests...
 Max and I speaking ...

Some of the youth's questions for Q & A

Preaching Sunday morning for our last session at the event- I received great feedback, the message apparently really resonating with people- praise the Lord!

 Heading home to Oxford...
...but still time on the Eurostar (we went through the channel tunnel!) for a few more pastries from the Continent!

Praise the Lord for an effective weekend of ministry, building up the people of God. Thank you for your prayers! 




Monday, August 8, 2016

celebratory moments


Just a few celebratory moments to share from the past week... blessings of all shapes and sizes.


Handed in my final round of essays and have the receipt to prove it. All coursework officially completed. Now I'm actually finished with the program I already finished:)


The Rusty Bicycle has half price burgers on Mondays. Accordingly, Mondays are now marked 'burger day' on my calendar. Its the little things.


Celebrating Loretta's birthday- we three flatmates went out for croissants and coffees... treasuring these last weeks we girls get to live together. Its been such a blessing. 



Sunday, August 7, 2016

bits and pieces... and Narnia


This week the weather has been in and out- cool days and sunny days, wet and dry. I've just been wrapping epodes and ends for my Belgium trip later this week. 

Whenever I'm not occupied, my friends generally still are- pushing hard for the essay deadline now just a week and a half out. I am SO glad to be done with mine. But since that means my social group is a bit inactive, I've had time to curl up and read my way through C.S.Lewis' Chronicles of Narnia series. Some of them I haven't read in years- or at all. I got swept up in Lewis' other work and never fully got back to explore Narnia. And now, as I sit reading 'children's stories', I frequently have to pause and wipe away my tears. Such beautiful themes and amazing story telling. I just love it. Its been great to pause from working on my talks and just slip into Narnia and be inspired. Its amazing how fresh some of the beauty of the Kingdom comes through, how deeply it hits my heart. And for a delightful change, I don't have to work for it: unlike most the books I am accustomed to working with here, I can easily read a Narnia book in a day!

So, apart from reading excursions to Narnia, its just bits and pieces this week. But I don't mind. The down shifted pace is really pleasant for me at the moment and I am grateful for this interval.


The quality of the camera was poor, but a friend snapped this picture of us walking down South Park hill toward the hazy spires and steeples of downtown. Such a lovely view. 

Saturday, July 30, 2016

visit from Sarah!


 My close friend Sarah is over for a long weekend- so stoked to have her visit even as my time in Oxford draws near to a close. Its precious to get to share the setting of this special year with a friend so precious to me for so many years before.


At Christchurch college


Magedalen college in full bloom


Contra the forecast, the weather has been ideal the last two days- a genuine victory in England!




Saturday, July 23, 2016

a summer punting outing


It had been far too long since we last went punting, and this week has been properly summery (finally!) so several of us met up today to spend a leisurely hour on the river. 









The river isn't much for wildlife (unless you count ridiculous tourists which we passed in plenty, flailing, tangled in trees, and clinging to bridges) but i got to feed chips to the  ducks swimming alongside our punt (as you will see if you look closely at the above picture) and  I saw tiny fuzzy baby ducklings I wanted to kidnap (or, ducknap, I suppose)...


In the background, you can see the old glasshouses of the historic botanical gardens, as well as Magdalen college bell tower. 





Great afternoon on the water- a perfect summer afternoon in Oxford:)

(Thanks to everyone on the outing for sharing these fantastic photos!)